Heart Burn

Time seems to be going too fast for me lately. I feel like my kiddos are growing up too fast and doing things that sometimes I don't always acknowledge the way that I should. And I don't ever want to forget all these fun milestones that are happening everyday. Since this is my "journal" I have to record these things here. It is so hard to be a mommy sometimes because my heart just burns so much sometimes that it hurts! Not like a bad pain but like trying to hold on kind of pain. Like I don't ever want this moment to end, I want to freeze this moment forever.

For example, at night when Tale is getting ready for bed after we do our normal routine, I kneel down by his bedside to tuck him in and kiss him goodnight. Some nights he just doesn't want me to go, so he'll put one arm around my neck and pull me close and put his forehead on mine, and everytime I pull back to leave he holds my neck so tight, takes his fingers out of his mouth and gives me a kiss, and of course I stay. Or when we are at the park and he follows the big kids around because he wants to play with them. I watch him and he tries so hard to be a big boy and keep up. Trying to walk on the monkey bars, run from one thing to another. I just love watching him explore and wishing I had a camera because I never want to forget this moment. These little things just make my heart burn!!

So I thought I would jot somethings down that my kiddos are doing at this stage that just make my heart burn.

Tale (21 months)

He is trying so hard to communicate with us now. He is using more signs and starting to say more things too. He points at different things all the time wanting us to tell him what it is. Everytime we figure something out together I get sooo excited.

He loves his sister! He will lay down wherever we are when he wants to hold her. He lays down at the park, in the mall, in the bath tub sometimes, and motions his hands for her, it is the cutest thing. He loves to hold her.

When Leila cries he will run over to her and pat her back, or give her his blanket, give her a hug and kisses her head. He even tries to bring her different toys or he goes into the kitchen to get her a few of his favorite treats.

When he wants something he is the best kid!

When I scold him or yell he curls his lip down and puts his head down but quickly tries to give me a kiss to make it all better.

He likes me to kiss his ouchie and when i have one his kisses it too.

When he listens to me or starts picking up his toys to put them away when I don't even ask him to.

When he lays his head on my shoulder

Waves bye bye whenever he leaves and always has the biggest smile when he gets to go somewhere with his daddy.

Falling asleep on his own at night with the lights on.

Leila (4 months)

She sucks on my cheeks or my lips, oh I love that

She pushes back on her elbows and leans her head forward to try to sit up when she wants me to pick her up.

She oohs and ahhs in her crib when she wakes up in the morning

When I put her down or give her to her dad she doesn't take her eyes off of me.

When i'm breastfeeding her I love when she looks at me and smiles and then goes back to work

She thinks her brother is the funniest person, she will laugh at just about everything he does and he will do it over and over for her.

She tries to grab for everything now and you can tell she is trying to process everything! What we are eating, things on TV, the dog, I love seeing her try to figure things out.

When she is on her tummy she tries so hard to roll over, and when she does she has this look of accomplishment.

The big tears from her eyes when she cries.

There are so many things that I hope I will always remember. I can't wait to witness more things that make my heart burn. Mommy loves you Tale and Leila...........so much!!!!